down the memory lane

said I love you, and it wasnt a lie. I knew she didn’t, and i knew saying it would mean the end, but i couldnt refrain, cuz its just not the way i am. so i said it. but she didnt say anything. not a word. nothing. but i could hear her silence loud and clear. she was all, umar, why did you do it? why did you say that? you know this can’t be. you know we are not meant to be, you know we are like the banks of a river that go together but can never be one. you knew all that. then why did you do it, umar? you ruined it. you destroyed everything. you just tried to merge the river banks. now there will be flood. and you will be responsible for all the mess.

I heard it all that she didnt say.

and i was all, you know i love you, you know it. you hear it when i talk to you. you see it when i look at you. and i know you feel the same. i can feel the sparks, the heat, the passion in you. then why restrain your love, baby? just feel the moment. cherish it. this moment is real. it is the truth. you know it. i know it. then why don’t you say it. why worry about tomorrow. what are you scared of.

i didn’t say it, but i hope she heard it.

she didn’t say anything, didn’t move, didn’t even take her hands out of mine, didn’t even move her shoulder away upon which i was lying my head. she just acted like a beautifully carved statue. those were our last moments together. and as much as i wanted it to last for eternity, i knew it would soon be over. in few moments we would be walking our separate ways, never to meet again. but i will love her for what she did that day, or what she didn’t do. and didn’t say. i will love her because she did not break my heart by saying something i didn’t want to hear, by not moving away from my arms because doing so would have left bitter memories of that evening, instead of these sweet ones. she was, indeed, very wise, very thoughtful, very beautiful.